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50 Responses to “A Place for Your Angels 2008 (Part 2, Nov-Dec)”
One of the name’s I thought of for you was Kenley – which means “dweller in the King’s feild”. I know that’s where you are now. Dwelling, dancing, and playing in the King’s feild. I’m sorry
In memory of my beautiful baby girl, Isaiah, who entered and left this world on November 12th, 2008:
I will remember you always. I will love you always. We will never forget you. I know you are in good hands now with Jesus in heaven and I hope to reunite with you someday.
13th november 2008 is a sad but special day i will remember for you, i never met you but i will never forget you and ill hold a special place in my heart for you forever.
nite nite my little angel.i love you with all my heart
mommy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My baby I am so sad and hurt that you left but it was for the best the Lord only takes with him the best I will see you once again,
my Love
I know you will shine down on us and keep us safe!
I love you always!
Mama
I’m so glad to know what it feels like to be a mother for those 2 short
months. I was so excited but you weren’t ready yet. I hope to see you one day when this life is over. I love you!!
thank you baby for the opportunity to carry you and the wonderful experience you gave both of us. I am so sorry to have lost you & love you always. Rest in peace my angel.
I need to say this. I was only 14. I got druk and had sex without even knowing about it. 11 weeks later I lost a baby I didnt even know I had. I am 19. I think about my baby everyday. I want my baby everyday. Most days I can compose myself, but today I found out a friend had one too… Every feeling I had that day returned. Is it normal to be grieving an 11 week old fetus for 5 years.
Isaiah 43:1, Isaiah 44:2, Isaiah 49:1 and Jeremiah 1:5.
I gave birth to you on October 25th at 9:15am. I held you in my arms and you hold a spot in my heart forever. Your Dad, sister and 3 brothers love you also.
Thanks for the time that we got to spend with you. The 8 weeks that i thought you were in me and found out that you passed at 6 weeks.
Today is Thanksgiving and we miss you terribly. It has almost been two weeks since we found out that your sweet little heart stopped beating and the pain is almost unbearable. Even though we only new about you for 10 weeks, it was a wonderful and happy 10 weeks. We can’t wait to see you again in heaven. God is taking care of you and you will watch over and take care of us.
An angel among us…
When we feel the wind blow
Are you walking by
When rain falls from the sky
Do we hear your cry
When we see a sliver moon
Are you smiling from above
When the sky’s thick with fog
Are you blanketing us with love
When dew settles on the ground
Is it the feel of your tender kiss
When thunder claps between the clouds
Is it your first words we can’t miss
When the sun fills us with warmth
Is that your loving embrace
When the moon is full
Is that your chubby little face
When a bolt of lighting strikes
Is that your dancing energy we feel
When snowflakes float down
Is our angel here to help us heal
We found out today that God hade taken you home to play. I love you so much and started missing you the moment I heard the news. I am not sure if I will ever fill whole again. Mommy and daddy will never forget you sweet pea!!!!!!
Even though your little body left us too soon, your soul will come back to us. You weren’t able to make it this time, but you will the next.
I miss you and love you. Even though it was a short time you were with me, I loved you more than anything. I know you were a boy, even though your Daddy argues that!
We love you so much and am so heart broken you were taken from us, but we will see you again one day in heaven. ~~~How very softly you tiptoed into my world almost silently, only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint you have left upon our heart.
I wish I could have held you but I never got that chance.
I want you to know how much I love you and not a day will ever go by when I dont think about you.
You made me the happiest person in the world when I found out about you and the saddest when I lost you. You were obviously too good for this world and ment to be an angel.
The day I found out that we were expecting you was one of the happiest days of my life! Daddy and I were so excited and so was your big sister, Aaliyah. She liked to refer to you as our ‘little bean’.
When we received the unfortunate news that you weren’t going to make it, we felt a sorrow that no heart should ever have to feel.
We know we have an angel watching upon us from heaven.
You will be forever in our hearts.
I will always love you.
A part of me has died with you.
I have to be strong body and mind for your brother but know
that I will never forget you.
My sweet, sweet angel.
To my little angel. Mommy loves you. I hope to some day know your purpose. You will always be a part of me. You are will God and your grandma. I know you are in good hands till I meet you in heaven some day.
Mommy
We were so thankful on Thanksgiving day to celebrate with family your impending arrival in 30 weeks, especially since we had already seen your little heart beating on the ultrasound I got when I started spotting. So to lose you the next day – Black Friday, indeed – was more than shocking. More than unexpected. More than we wanted to face. But we are facing it. And even though we’re moving forward, we won’t be forgetting you. Ever. We will always miss the opportunity to have known you, watched you grow, hold you. In those few hours, we lost an entire future. But you will forever exist in our hearts and minds and we honor your life however brief. We would have loved to have known you.
Our sweet little angel We were more than excited to meet you this June, I hope you know that we love you so much and that we will be thinking of you always. You were the best thing that could have happened for us we wanted this so bad, but you just needed to be with god and watch over us from up above. I love you little angel and one day we will meet again!
12-2-08 Our sweet little angel left us, almost 12weeks old
To my angel, i miss you and know ou are watching over me and waiting for me to hold you in my arms. I love you…watch over me and your new baby brother or sister and give them the strength to make it.
Mommy just wanted to send you a message and let you know I still love you and miss you more than ever. Thursday, December 11, was your due date but we know you would have been a Thanksgiving Baby because of the induction. Mommy is now 29 weeks pregnant with your little sister, Alyssa Elayne, and I want to thank you for watching over her so much. Mommy and Daddy really miss you and have though about you much the past few weeks and miss you terribly. We wonder what it would be like if we could have held you and seen your little face, but no regrets because you and God gave us Alyssa instead. Tell Grandma Cyndi and Uncle Jeremy we love them and miss them too. Merry Christmas my dear sweet angel.
To our little ray of sunshine,
How sad we are not to have known you. We were excited to know you would be coming, especially daddy. The lord took you from us but we are grateful for the time we had you. One day we will see you again and we know you are in a better place.
We love you Alyssa-Joy and will never forget you. You will always be in our hearts.
Love,
Mommy and Daddy
To my darling girl Lydia Grace,
I hope you know how much I love you! Daddy & I miss you so much. So do big brother Riley & big sister Brooklyn–they talk about you nearly every day.
We know that you are happy & well, resting in the arms of our loving God–I imagine that you are playing with the angels before they tuck you in at night.
Please know that we think of you ALL the time & can’t wait to get to Heaven to see you again. You are always with us; even if we can’t be with you, & we’re so thankful for that!
Love Always,
Mama
Lost my identical twins today. Don’t know why. They got all the way to 13. 5 wks. Seems so unfair to say goodbye, wish I could have known you and you could have met your big brother. You know you two were miracles to begin with-I got pregnant on the pill and nusring and yet inspite of the fact that there’s no twins on my or your dad’s side of the family there you were and now you are gone. I am sorry, wish there was something I could do to undo this loss.
My Angel Madison-
I know it has been awhile since I have written to you, but please know that you are always with me. I miss you so much everyday. I can’t believe that it is getting so close to when you would have been born. The holidays are not the same without you with me. We all miss you so much and hope that you are surrounded with love. I feel your presence all around us. Words can not express the love that we feel for you. You will always be our baby. I feel as if I am rambling to you, but I know that you know how I feel and everything that I have and will say to you. I keep thinking about missing you moving around inside of me. Your dad would always wait for me to go to sleep and then he would stay awake and feel your brother and sister move. He enjoyed “his time” with them so much. I know that he would have done the same for you. I love you and miss you. All my love to you. I can not wait till the day that I can snuggle on you, smell you and put my kisses all over your angelic face. Know that you are and always will be with me. Enjoy your time with all of our angel babies. They are all greatly missed. Continue to guide us on our journey through life. I know that you are always there.
I has now been a year since you left us and Tuesday was so very hard for me ask I replayed that horrible day when I lost you. There is not a day that goes by that I do not stop and think of you. You would have been 7 months now. Mommy and daddy miss you terribly and we want you to know that even though you are no longer physically here you will remain with us in our heart forever,and you will always be our first born. Loves and kiss my beautiful little girl. We love you.
To my 5 darlings,
It is a comfort to know you are in place that you will never feel the grief that consumes me today. I love you all in a way I never new possible and am so thankful for the lessons I have learned from each of you. I must admit that it pisses me off that I never got to know you in this life, one day I promise to kiss and cuddle you until you are sick with me.
Love, Mom
Ashley and Alyssa December 6, 2008
June 2008
July 2006
October 2003
In memory of my precious baby who was born far, far too soon…only living inside Mommy for seven and a half weeks.
My baby – Kai Angel, grew wings on December 17th, 2007…one year ago today.
Kai, my precious little gift, without you being with me for the short time that you were, I wouldn’t be a part of a miracle of God’s…the miracle of creating life. When I found that I was pregnant, I was so very excited as you were very much wanted. I was going to tell everyone on Christmas Day, last year, that you were to be an addition to the family, but I never had the chance. Though your little time on Earth wasn’t enough for me, I’m glad I had you for as long as I did. I’m able to say that I carried a life inside of me.
I now have a special little angel in Heaven.
I cried for you last night, and I feel liking crying now. My eyes are burning as I try to hold back the tears.
This would have been your first Christmas at five months old, had you survived. My sweet baby, I love you so very, very much, though I never got to know you. Were you my girl in pink or my boy in blue? I never even had the chance to see your sonogram picture or hear your little heartbeat. You left me before my first doctor’s appointment, but Mommy doesn’t blame you, precious. I don’t and I never will. How could I?
My heart aches for you, sweet one. It truly does.
I know you’re with my mom, your grandmother, who wanted a grandchild years ago. I’m glad you’re both together, though I cry over the both of you. You two can share your birthdays. You were estimated to be due on July 22nd, the day after your grandmother’s birthday. I love you both so much. I know you’re safe and loved and cradled by your grandma. I know she’s crazy about you and gives you the kisses and hugs that I can’t.
I played a special song for you at your memorial/balloon ceremony in the park with our family and friends. It brought tears to many eyes, and the song says all that I couldn’t say on my own. I’m posting those lyrics here in your memory, sweetpea.
Kai, my precious, Mommy loves you so much and will always love you. You’re my very first and only child and maybe some day you’ll be a guardian angel to your younger siblings. I have no idea of when, but I’m hopeful and prayerful.
Here’s our song, sweetpea. I’m sending it with a kiss on the wind.
“A World Apart” by The Manhattan Transfer
Lost in a feelin’
So very deep inside of me
Something’s not healing ever since you left this place
Oh, but I loved you and although I didn’t know you
Just the idea of you brought
Rapture to my face
I feel I almost got to know you
At least you made it to my heart, even though we’ll always
be a world apart
Now I’m getting on without you, but I need to cry sometimes ‘cause I know we’ll always be a world apart
Voices of children
In the streets I hear them laughing; It all fades to one voice I hear crying in the night
I think about you wondering
If you’re out there listening
as if the words I sing
will somehow bring you light
Well I almost got to know you
At least you made it to my heart, but I know we’ll always
be a world apart
Now I’m getting on without you, but there’s a shadow in my heart, ‘cause I know we’ll always be a world apart
Seems I almost got to know you, at least you made it to my heart, but I know we’ll always
be a world apart
Through the constancy of memory, you will live inside my heart, then we’ll never have to be a world apart
Over and over I never knew
How much till you were gone
Over and over and over
You will be mine eternally….oh, baby.
Oh, oh, I never knew how much I loved you, baby.
Why do we have to be….
At least you made it to my heart. You know I never knew how much…I never knew how much…I never knew how much, til you were gone.
If you were a boy then Jesse if a girl then Jessica. you were only 9.5 weeks when you died but you will always be a part of our family and in our hearts. I have an angel charm on a bracelet for you just like I have a bracelet for your brother Aleksi and It will remain on my arm forever. Please know that even though we move on with our lives you are still in our minds and hearts and will never be forgotten! Although you are in heaven now you are still in this family and always will be!
You grew inside my tummy and that is a bond that is stonger than any other!
Rest in heaven now little one and know that your are in our family forever.
Just wanted to thank for giving me someone to love and live for. You have reminded me of how beautiful life is and that is how I will always remember you.
You have made me a better person and I know God sent you to me for that reason. I will always love you
We found out you went to heaven on Tues. Dec. 16th. I was supposed to be 11 weeks pregnant, but you measured only 7 weeks and there was no heartbeat. You are greatly missed by me and your daddy. We wish you could of met your 2 year old big brother Sebastian. We will never forget you and love and miss you very much.
In memory of Jamie (January 13, 2008) and Reagan (December 18, 2008). “If God is for us, who can be against us?” Daddy and I love you very much. Your big sister Lisa also misses you, and so do both Grandmas and Grandpas.
This weekend I received a necklace in remembrance of the two of you– my little twins lost at 10 weeks. I will never forget you. I think of you every day and know I will see you someday. Daddy and I wanted you more than you know…
oh my little Tummymuffin, you brought so much joy in your tiny life to so many; for this i will be forever grateful to you. you were this glowing, amazing, invisible reality within me, and i hope to never forget what astonishing wonder that was. goodbye…
You would’ve been either Jayden or Madison if you were a girl, and the Jackson the fourth if you were a boy. There isn’t a day i don’t think of you. You were so unexpected, but even as young as me and daddy are, we had planned to keep our baby and love them for the rest of our lives. You left entirely too soon, I wish everyday I could still talk to you, or I could feel you so close.
I’ll see you in heaven one day my beautiful angel, I know you’re being taken good care of up there.
Mommy wrote one too, but I wanted to tell you I love you.
To hold you in my arms would have been the most joy I would have ever known. I wish every day that this had not happened, that you were still safe inside your mother. The day we learned we lost you destroyed me. But please, know that I will never stop loving you, and I will never forget you, my little baby. Not a day goes by where you aren’t in my mind. I cannot wait until the day we are re-united, and I finally will have you in my arms.
I would give everything to have this not happen, to have you back where you are supposed to be. I love you
To my six angels in Heaven (Clair, Casey, Corey, Alex, Taylor, and Jordan):
Mommy misses you all so much. I know you are all having fun with your five great grandparents. You have two wonderful brothers who were not supposed to make it, but God spared them. You would love them. They are fun. My heart aches and I cry tears. Casey, when I was told you had no heartbeat, I was in deep sadness. Those two weeks until I actually miscarried you were spent praying that the doctor was wrong. The other five of you placed me in deep sadness also. You would love your Daddy. He is a super guy. I know you are all pain-free and happy. I love you all.
…Mommy
To my sweet angel baby. You went to be with God on November 5 2008. I will never know what you looked like or how it felt to hold you but I love you so much. I look foward to seeing you one day in heaven.
I love you my sweet angel and you will always be in my heart.
In memory of my sweet ones:
Daniel
Emma Hope
Casey Shay
I love you.
One of the name’s I thought of for you was Kenley – which means “dweller in the King’s feild”. I know that’s where you are now. Dwelling, dancing, and playing in the King’s feild. I’m sorry
I miss all my babies, four I lost now.
Be with God.
for
Christina Noel
died 11-10-08
In memory of my beautiful baby girl, Isaiah, who entered and left this world on November 12th, 2008:
I will remember you always. I will love you always. We will never forget you. I know you are in good hands now with Jesus in heaven and I hope to reunite with you someday.
For Mouse. You came into our lives and left again too quickly. We love and miss you so much. We know you are in Heaven and will see you there one day.
13th november 2008 is a sad but special day i will remember for you, i never met you but i will never forget you and ill hold a special place in my heart for you forever.
nite nite my little angel.i love you with all my heart
mommy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My baby I am so sad and hurt that you left but it was for the best the Lord only takes with him the best I will see you once again,
my Love
I know you will shine down on us and keep us safe!
I love you always!
Mama
Baby Hicks
11-17-2008
To my little angel. Im sorry we never got to meet in this world. I think about you every day. We love you and will see you in heaven.
Until then,
Mom and Dad
Baby Bender
10-31-08
Baby Castillo
11-3-08
I’m so glad to know what it feels like to be a mother for those 2 short
months. I was so excited but you weren’t ready yet. I hope to see you one day when this life is over. I love you!!
thank you baby for the opportunity to carry you and the wonderful experience you gave both of us. I am so sorry to have lost you & love you always. Rest in peace my angel.
I am sorry I never got to know you and feel you. Know that I love you with all my heart. We will meet again someday.
Love,
mommy
I need to say this. I was only 14. I got druk and had sex without even knowing about it. 11 weeks later I lost a baby I didnt even know I had. I am 19. I think about my baby everyday. I want my baby everyday. Most days I can compose myself, but today I found out a friend had one too… Every feeling I had that day returned. Is it normal to be grieving an 11 week old fetus for 5 years.
My sweet baby, forever in my heart…..
love your mummy in eternity
Isaiah 43:1, Isaiah 44:2, Isaiah 49:1 and Jeremiah 1:5.
I gave birth to you on October 25th at 9:15am. I held you in my arms and you hold a spot in my heart forever. Your Dad, sister and 3 brothers love you also.
Thanks for the time that we got to spend with you. The 8 weeks that i thought you were in me and found out that you passed at 6 weeks.
Frankie Peyton
Mommy’s little bunny. Daddy, Aniana and I were so excited to meet you. We love you and miss you.
Baby Hope,
Today is Thanksgiving and we miss you terribly. It has almost been two weeks since we found out that your sweet little heart stopped beating and the pain is almost unbearable. Even though we only new about you for 10 weeks, it was a wonderful and happy 10 weeks. We can’t wait to see you again in heaven. God is taking care of you and you will watch over and take care of us.
An angel among us…
When we feel the wind blow
Are you walking by
When rain falls from the sky
Do we hear your cry
When we see a sliver moon
Are you smiling from above
When the sky’s thick with fog
Are you blanketing us with love
When dew settles on the ground
Is it the feel of your tender kiss
When thunder claps between the clouds
Is it your first words we can’t miss
When the sun fills us with warmth
Is that your loving embrace
When the moon is full
Is that your chubby little face
When a bolt of lighting strikes
Is that your dancing energy we feel
When snowflakes float down
Is our angel here to help us heal
Love,
Mommy, Daddy and Kylie
We found out today that God hade taken you home to play. I love you so much and started missing you the moment I heard the news. I am not sure if I will ever fill whole again. Mommy and daddy will never forget you sweet pea!!!!!!
Even though your little body left us too soon, your soul will come back to us. You weren’t able to make it this time, but you will the next.
I miss you and love you. Even though it was a short time you were with me, I loved you more than anything. I know you were a boy, even though your Daddy argues that!
I will see you soon! I love you – Mommy
We love you so much and am so heart broken you were taken from us, but we will see you again one day in heaven. ~~~How very softly you tiptoed into my world almost silently, only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint you have left upon our heart.
I wish I could have held you but I never got that chance.
I want you to know how much I love you and not a day will ever go by when I dont think about you.
You made me the happiest person in the world when I found out about you and the saddest when I lost you. You were obviously too good for this world and ment to be an angel.
God bless you aimee.
Mum xxxxxx
The day I found out that we were expecting you was one of the happiest days of my life! Daddy and I were so excited and so was your big sister, Aaliyah. She liked to refer to you as our ‘little bean’.
When we received the unfortunate news that you weren’t going to make it, we felt a sorrow that no heart should ever have to feel.
We know we have an angel watching upon us from heaven.
You will be forever in our hearts.
Mommy, Daddy & Big Sister Aaliyah
xoxox
Matthew, I miss you so much. Take care of your sister in Heaven and watch over your brother and sister here on Earth. We love you peanut.
Mommy.. and your younger sister and brother..forever loved, forever missed XXOO
I will always love you.
A part of me has died with you.
I have to be strong body and mind for your brother but know
that I will never forget you.
My sweet, sweet angel.
Mommy
To my little angel. Mommy loves you. I hope to some day know your purpose. You will always be a part of me. You are will God and your grandma. I know you are in good hands till I meet you in heaven some day.
Mommy
We were so thankful on Thanksgiving day to celebrate with family your impending arrival in 30 weeks, especially since we had already seen your little heart beating on the ultrasound I got when I started spotting. So to lose you the next day – Black Friday, indeed – was more than shocking. More than unexpected. More than we wanted to face. But we are facing it. And even though we’re moving forward, we won’t be forgetting you. Ever. We will always miss the opportunity to have known you, watched you grow, hold you. In those few hours, we lost an entire future. But you will forever exist in our hearts and minds and we honor your life however brief. We would have loved to have known you.
Our sweet little angel We were more than excited to meet you this June, I hope you know that we love you so much and that we will be thinking of you always. You were the best thing that could have happened for us we wanted this so bad, but you just needed to be with god and watch over us from up above. I love you little angel and one day we will meet again!
12-2-08 Our sweet little angel left us, almost 12weeks old
To my angel, i miss you and know ou are watching over me and waiting for me to hold you in my arms. I love you…watch over me and your new baby brother or sister and give them the strength to make it.
Angel Baby Currie-
Mommy just wanted to send you a message and let you know I still love you and miss you more than ever. Thursday, December 11, was your due date but we know you would have been a Thanksgiving Baby because of the induction. Mommy is now 29 weeks pregnant with your little sister, Alyssa Elayne, and I want to thank you for watching over her so much. Mommy and Daddy really miss you and have though about you much the past few weeks and miss you terribly. We wonder what it would be like if we could have held you and seen your little face, but no regrets because you and God gave us Alyssa instead. Tell Grandma Cyndi and Uncle Jeremy we love them and miss them too. Merry Christmas my dear sweet angel.
Love,
Mommy, Daddy, Sissy, Bubba, and Alyssa
To our little ray of sunshine,
How sad we are not to have known you. We were excited to know you would be coming, especially daddy. The lord took you from us but we are grateful for the time we had you. One day we will see you again and we know you are in a better place.
We love you Alyssa-Joy and will never forget you. You will always be in our hearts.
Love,
Mommy and Daddy
To my darling girl Lydia Grace,
I hope you know how much I love you! Daddy & I miss you so much. So do big brother Riley & big sister Brooklyn–they talk about you nearly every day.
We know that you are happy & well, resting in the arms of our loving God–I imagine that you are playing with the angels before they tuck you in at night.
Please know that we think of you ALL the time & can’t wait to get to Heaven to see you again. You are always with us; even if we can’t be with you, & we’re so thankful for that!
Love Always,
Mama
Dear Scarlett,
May the warmth of God’s love embrace you,
May the compassion of those who care surround you.
Thinking of you,
Tio Mario and Tia Emily
Lost my identical twins today. Don’t know why. They got all the way to 13. 5 wks. Seems so unfair to say goodbye, wish I could have known you and you could have met your big brother. You know you two were miracles to begin with-I got pregnant on the pill and nusring and yet inspite of the fact that there’s no twins on my or your dad’s side of the family there you were and now you are gone. I am sorry, wish there was something I could do to undo this loss.
Love,
Mom
My Angel Madison-
I know it has been awhile since I have written to you, but please know that you are always with me. I miss you so much everyday. I can’t believe that it is getting so close to when you would have been born. The holidays are not the same without you with me. We all miss you so much and hope that you are surrounded with love. I feel your presence all around us. Words can not express the love that we feel for you. You will always be our baby. I feel as if I am rambling to you, but I know that you know how I feel and everything that I have and will say to you. I keep thinking about missing you moving around inside of me. Your dad would always wait for me to go to sleep and then he would stay awake and feel your brother and sister move. He enjoyed “his time” with them so much. I know that he would have done the same for you. I love you and miss you. All my love to you. I can not wait till the day that I can snuggle on you, smell you and put my kisses all over your angelic face. Know that you are and always will be with me. Enjoy your time with all of our angel babies. They are all greatly missed. Continue to guide us on our journey through life. I know that you are always there.
Hugs, Kisses, and lots of love,
Mom
Scarlett,
I has now been a year since you left us and Tuesday was so very hard for me ask I replayed that horrible day when I lost you. There is not a day that goes by that I do not stop and think of you. You would have been 7 months now. Mommy and daddy miss you terribly and we want you to know that even though you are no longer physically here you will remain with us in our heart forever,and you will always be our first born. Loves and kiss my beautiful little girl. We love you.
Love always
Mommy and Daddy
xoxoxox
Besos
TE QUIERO MUCHO AMORCITO. YO SE QUE TE ENCUENTRAS BIEN ALLA CON LOS ANGELITOS!
To my 5 darlings,
It is a comfort to know you are in place that you will never feel the grief that consumes me today. I love you all in a way I never new possible and am so thankful for the lessons I have learned from each of you. I must admit that it pisses me off that I never got to know you in this life, one day I promise to kiss and cuddle you until you are sick with me.
Love, Mom
Ashley and Alyssa December 6, 2008
June 2008
July 2006
October 2003
In memory of my precious baby who was born far, far too soon…only living inside Mommy for seven and a half weeks.
My baby – Kai Angel, grew wings on December 17th, 2007…one year ago today.
Kai, my precious little gift, without you being with me for the short time that you were, I wouldn’t be a part of a miracle of God’s…the miracle of creating life. When I found that I was pregnant, I was so very excited as you were very much wanted. I was going to tell everyone on Christmas Day, last year, that you were to be an addition to the family, but I never had the chance. Though your little time on Earth wasn’t enough for me, I’m glad I had you for as long as I did. I’m able to say that I carried a life inside of me.
I now have a special little angel in Heaven.
I cried for you last night, and I feel liking crying now. My eyes are burning as I try to hold back the tears.
This would have been your first Christmas at five months old, had you survived. My sweet baby, I love you so very, very much, though I never got to know you. Were you my girl in pink or my boy in blue? I never even had the chance to see your sonogram picture or hear your little heartbeat. You left me before my first doctor’s appointment, but Mommy doesn’t blame you, precious. I don’t and I never will. How could I?
My heart aches for you, sweet one. It truly does.
I know you’re with my mom, your grandmother, who wanted a grandchild years ago. I’m glad you’re both together, though I cry over the both of you. You two can share your birthdays. You were estimated to be due on July 22nd, the day after your grandmother’s birthday. I love you both so much. I know you’re safe and loved and cradled by your grandma. I know she’s crazy about you and gives you the kisses and hugs that I can’t.
I played a special song for you at your memorial/balloon ceremony in the park with our family and friends. It brought tears to many eyes, and the song says all that I couldn’t say on my own. I’m posting those lyrics here in your memory, sweetpea.
Kai, my precious, Mommy loves you so much and will always love you. You’re my very first and only child and maybe some day you’ll be a guardian angel to your younger siblings. I have no idea of when, but I’m hopeful and prayerful.
Here’s our song, sweetpea. I’m sending it with a kiss on the wind.
“A World Apart” by The Manhattan Transfer
Lost in a feelin’
So very deep inside of me
Something’s not healing ever since you left this place
Oh, but I loved you and although I didn’t know you
Just the idea of you brought
Rapture to my face
I feel I almost got to know you
At least you made it to my heart, even though we’ll always
be a world apart
Now I’m getting on without you, but I need to cry sometimes ‘cause I know we’ll always be a world apart
Voices of children
In the streets I hear them laughing; It all fades to one voice I hear crying in the night
I think about you wondering
If you’re out there listening
as if the words I sing
will somehow bring you light
Well I almost got to know you
At least you made it to my heart, but I know we’ll always
be a world apart
Now I’m getting on without you, but there’s a shadow in my heart, ‘cause I know we’ll always be a world apart
Seems I almost got to know you, at least you made it to my heart, but I know we’ll always
be a world apart
Through the constancy of memory, you will live inside my heart, then we’ll never have to be a world apart
Over and over I never knew
How much till you were gone
Over and over and over
You will be mine eternally….oh, baby.
Oh, oh, I never knew how much I loved you, baby.
Why do we have to be….
At least you made it to my heart. You know I never knew how much…I never knew how much…I never knew how much, til you were gone.
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I love you, Kai Angel. Sleep in Heavenly peace.
Mommy.
If you were a boy then Jesse if a girl then Jessica. you were only 9.5 weeks when you died but you will always be a part of our family and in our hearts. I have an angel charm on a bracelet for you just like I have a bracelet for your brother Aleksi and It will remain on my arm forever. Please know that even though we move on with our lives you are still in our minds and hearts and will never be forgotten! Although you are in heaven now you are still in this family and always will be!
You grew inside my tummy and that is a bond that is stonger than any other!
Rest in heaven now little one and know that your are in our family forever.
Just wanted to thank for giving me someone to love and live for. You have reminded me of how beautiful life is and that is how I will always remember you.
You have made me a better person and I know God sent you to me for that reason. I will always love you
Mommy
You suprised is with a blessing, and left all too soon. Now you are our angel and looking over us.
We found out you went to heaven on Tues. Dec. 16th. I was supposed to be 11 weeks pregnant, but you measured only 7 weeks and there was no heartbeat. You are greatly missed by me and your daddy. We wish you could of met your 2 year old big brother Sebastian. We will never forget you and love and miss you very much.
In memory of Jamie (January 13, 2008) and Reagan (December 18, 2008). “If God is for us, who can be against us?” Daddy and I love you very much. Your big sister Lisa also misses you, and so do both Grandmas and Grandpas.
Love, Mommy
This weekend I received a necklace in remembrance of the two of you– my little twins lost at 10 weeks. I will never forget you. I think of you every day and know I will see you someday. Daddy and I wanted you more than you know…
Love and kisses,
Mommy
oh my little Tummymuffin, you brought so much joy in your tiny life to so many; for this i will be forever grateful to you. you were this glowing, amazing, invisible reality within me, and i hope to never forget what astonishing wonder that was. goodbye…
You went to heaven on October 12, 2008,
You would’ve been either Jayden or Madison if you were a girl, and the Jackson the fourth if you were a boy. There isn’t a day i don’t think of you. You were so unexpected, but even as young as me and daddy are, we had planned to keep our baby and love them for the rest of our lives. You left entirely too soon, I wish everyday I could still talk to you, or I could feel you so close.
I’ll see you in heaven one day my beautiful angel, I know you’re being taken good care of up there.
-mommy and daddy
Mommy wrote one too, but I wanted to tell you I love you.
To hold you in my arms would have been the most joy I would have ever known. I wish every day that this had not happened, that you were still safe inside your mother. The day we learned we lost you destroyed me. But please, know that I will never stop loving you, and I will never forget you, my little baby. Not a day goes by where you aren’t in my mind. I cannot wait until the day we are re-united, and I finally will have you in my arms.
I would give everything to have this not happen, to have you back where you are supposed to be. I love you
-Daddy
To my six angels in Heaven (Clair, Casey, Corey, Alex, Taylor, and Jordan):
Mommy misses you all so much. I know you are all having fun with your five great grandparents. You have two wonderful brothers who were not supposed to make it, but God spared them. You would love them. They are fun. My heart aches and I cry tears. Casey, when I was told you had no heartbeat, I was in deep sadness. Those two weeks until I actually miscarried you were spent praying that the doctor was wrong. The other five of you placed me in deep sadness also. You would love your Daddy. He is a super guy. I know you are all pain-free and happy. I love you all.
…Mommy
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To my sweet angel baby. You went to be with God on November 5 2008. I will never know what you looked like or how it felt to hold you but I love you so much. I look foward to seeing you one day in heaven.
I love you my sweet angel and you will always be in my heart.
Mommy, Daddy, Lilly and Ella