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Just days ago I lost you, little one. I”m so sorry this happened. You were to be the third addition to our loving family. I am heartbroken and devastated. I miss you so much. You will always be a part of my heart and my soul.
My love, forever and ever,
It has only been days since your return to heaven. I want you to know that you have brought great joy and love to my heart, and Daddy and I are closer because of you. I miss you with every ounce of my being, and I know that you are safe up there with the angels. Please remember that I love you, and that I will see you soon. I know you watch over us, and I will always think of you my sweet, sweet Poppyseed.
I found out on my 31st birthday that you had died. I was 12 weeks along; 12 weeks of real happiness when I found out that you had only made it to 9 weeks. I only saw you once on the monitor, the day I found out that you had no heartbeat. You looked just like a little teddy bear with your arms opened wide, ready to give me a hug.
I will never forget you, my little teddy bear. I miss you so much.
Mommy thinks of you every day.
Every time I see a baby that would be your age.
I know you are in heaven looking down on us,
Watching over us instead of us watching over you.
I wish you were here.
My beautiful son will be 2 this Saturday. He is here because of a miscarriage at 10 weeks. On Monday I discovered the baby that I’m carrying (that I saw with a heartbeat on Thursday) is gone. My heart is broken, but hopeful that we will be able to conceive again….and that baby will be ours to keep!
You left us at 8 weeks 5 days, one day after we met you on the ultrasound and everything was perfect. I carried you with me, not knowing that you left, until 12 weeks 4 days. On day 5, they took you from me. It will be 2 weeks this Friday. Fridays will never be the same. You were going to be number 3 (4). We wanted you so much … even at my times of dread at finding a minivan and losing my job and all the stress, I still wanted you … and I will forever feel guilty for feeling those thoughts, as if you caused them. Poor little one. Even though you were gone, I was lucky to have you as long as I did. My body never knew that you were gone and it kept growing, kept trying to nurture you. Your daddy and I will love you forever.
My Sweet Baby Hartmann, I am so grateful for the short time you were with me here on this Earth. I am very sad that I won’t be able to hold you in my arms this September. After losing your Grandma(my mom) last July and than losing you, I was devastated. Your Grandma will care for you until one day we can meet again. You were my first baby & hopefully one day I will be able to hold your younger sibling(s) in my longing arms.
Love mom & dad
to my darling angel mummy and daddy were so looking forward to meeting u and im so upset u made it to heaven i keep thinking bout the cuddles we were to have and all the pregnancy feelings i should have all the flutters and kicks i had to look forward too xx mummy and daddy miss u so much it has been 16days angel pie mummy longs to be with u but i need to look after ur brothers and sisters now but one day darling ill get to hold u xx just cos i dont cry everyday baby dont mean u aint in my thoughts as u are every second of everyday love u lots angel pie xxxxxxxxxx u went to heaven at 8weeks 5days on 13/03/10 xx
HI MOMMIES ANGEL! U CAME INTO MY LIFE SO UNEXPECTANTLY AND I WAS SO OVERJOYED! DADDY WAS ESTATIC! THEN GOD CALLED U HOME ON MARCH 21,2010 BECAUSE HE HAD BETTER PLANS FOR YOU UP THERE! I MISS U SO MUCH! AND DADDY DOES TOO! I DONT KNOW WHETER TO BE HAPPY THAT U ARE ONE OF GOD’S ANGELS OR SAD BECAUSE U ARE GONE! I LOVE U BOOKIE! AND MOMMY MISSES U SO VERY DEAR! R.I.P. PRECIOUS MIRACLE SIMPSON 7 WEEKS OLD! LOVE MOMMY AND DADDY!
OUR SPECIAL PEANUT,
WE WAITED SO LONG FOR YOU TO COME INTO OUR LIVES AND WE ARE SO GREATFUL FOR SUCH A PRECIOUS BLESSING. GOD NEEDED AN ANGEL SO HE CHOSE YOU.WE MISS YOU EVERYDAY! YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR HEARTS!WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH! R.I.P.SERGIO ISAIAH
LOVE YOUR BIG BROTHER FABIAN,YOUR 2 BIG SISTERS ANGELICA & LAYLA,BABY SISTER MIA & YOUR PROUD PARENTS
Smidge, you were surrounded by so much love every minute you were in my womb. On March 2, 2010 we found out that your heart was no longer beating, we were so sad. We are still very sad. We know we can not answer the question why so we like to think that where you are is a happier place than where we wanted you to be (in our arms). We will never forget you and the joy you gave us during the 7 short weeks we knew about you.
No joke, 4/1/10, at 20weeks your heart stopped beating. Mommy misses you so much. I don’t know how I will get through this. You were a fighter and God took you from us. You are one of God’s Angels…… one day I will hold you and will never let you go.
I love little guy… Mommy we will meet again….
My sweet little one. It has been a while since we said goodbye, but I think of you every day. I know that god has other plans for you and I know you will do them well. Your family loves you and we are working hard to find some peace in this. You will always be mommy’s little girl even though I was never able to hold you. Know you gave us so much joy knowing you were coming and you had a true purpose in our lives. Love you, Mama
My sweet baby angels, I am missing you today. I miss knowing that you are not inside of my body anymore. I miss the anticipation of your births. I miss having hope that you would be born healthy and whole. I know that you are in Heaven with my other little ones. I cannot wait to hold you in my arms someday and cradle you and tell you how much that I love you and wanted you. Until we meet…..
caylee joy – this time i left my name. I thought afterwards that i should have. I thought about you all day today; there were lots of babies in church, and I wanted so badly to be one of the people so blessedly distracted by one. I thought about how big you would be getting right now (you would be a year old on May 14), and the cute little dress you would have worn (it would have been lacey and flowery, and you would have looked so cute). I miss you baby, so, so much, and I always will. Some of the hurt is going away now, and now I can just miss you (though it still makes me cry). I hope, whereever you are, you can see this. I love you baby, my caylee, my little joy. I couldn’t figure out the perfect middle name for you until I realized that, even though you aren’t here, you are my little joy – my sunshine. I’ll love you forever.
To my dear ‘squishy’- its early morning, just dawning… your daddy is asleep. today they take you away from me, today you will no longer be part of me. I have cried for so many hours, I have wanted to scream and shout, but I know nothing will bring you back. My little angel, take good care and remember that I will always love you.
forever in my heart
On January 1 your daddy and I decided it was time to have you, we were ready. On Feb 3, we found out you were ready to be here with us as well! We were over the moon. I have never seen your dad be so excited about anything!! Plans started, some clothes bought, bedding picked out. We were so eager to meet you in October. On March 16 we heard your perfect hearbeat. You were 10 weeks along and the heartbeat was so loud and stong like a little washing machine. Made Daddy cry and he videotaped the wonderful sound. On March 26 I went back for a checkup and your hearbeat was not there. We went to look for the heartbeat and there were a perfect little baby with no heartbeat. That was the saddest days of our lives. That Monday they took you from me and sent you on your next journey. It has been almost 2 weeks since the devastating news and I think of you every hour. I have cried for you everday. And i know Daddy has too! I know we never ‘met’ but we miss you like crazy! We will love you everyday and think of you everyday. You gave us such joy for 11.5 weeks! Take care lil one!!
Thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday, and days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have is memories and a picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake, in which I’ll never part. God has you in his keeping. I have you in my heart.
Hi Ashlin Mira Osband. I miss you so much. Even though you aren’t here anymore, you still took your daddy’s last name. Even though I am only 15, I still would have taken care of you. I will never stop loving you. I am just so sorry that you had to leave us so early. I suppose that God needed you more. You are my little angel. My little dream. That is what your name means. Dream. I love you so much. And so does daddy. I cry every time I think of you, and daddy tries so hard not to, but I know late at night he prays as he thinks of you. He prays that you will think of us, up in heaven. He prays that we will meet you in heaven some day. I wrote you a letter today. Daddy is going to make you a memory box. And we will write you everyday. About everything. What we are going through, what we think. And we never stop thinking about you. We love you.
I miss you every day, and think of you every morning as soon as I wake up. Daddy and I are lost without you. We are trying to decide what our next step will be. I know you are safe and w/ Jesus. That makes me feel a little better. I know it is time to move on, I have to for daddy and I please don’t be angry my love, you are apart of me that we will never forget. You have given me a beautiful gift.
I will be back to visit.
We love you,
Mommy and daddy
My angels, I have been thinking of you a lot lately, it’s been a while since you left us and yet the the pain still feels raw somehow. Sometimes it is so hard to breathe, to get up, to keep going, of course I do, I must. You will always be in my heart. Take care, be well, where ever you are and maybe one day we will be together. I love you.
mommy misses you so much. i think about you everyday and love you very much. no one around me understands how everytime i think of you my chest feels like my heart is going to explode in to million pieces. i still carry you in my heart and pray for you everyday. its been 2 years and 3 months since you went to heaven and it still feels like yesterday. your daddy misses you greatly, we have your us pictures on our wall and your little jersey your daddy got you beside it. i never will forget you, my first little angel.keep watching us from heaven, & i promise to be with you again someday.
Baby Sarah, You were meant to be in my arms this week. I love you and know that you are in the arms of Jesus today.
Your big sister misses you and just knows that Nana is rocking you until we get there. You changed my life in 16 weeks! I love you always!
Adriel, I lost you early,but I still love you. I know you are watching over your little sister that is 3now here on earth. She need a angel watching over her. Just found out today lost another angel today. Adriel,you have a sibling to play with in heaven. I love both of my angel. One day mommy will be in heaven with you,but until than I will be takeing care of our sister.
It’s been 5 weeks today since we learned your heart was no longer beating. I have thought of you every hour since then. We miss you lot! And love you lots! I just wanted you to know that.
Mommy and daddy were over the moon when we found out that we were pregnant with you. Your first ultrasound was so beautiful and your heartbeat at 6 weeks 4 days was a strong 126 bpm. But on March 31, 2010 at 8 weeks 6 days you went to heaven. God needed you for a reason. Mommy and daddy did not find out that you had left us until mommy was almost 11 weeks along. During your final ultrasound you were measuring two weeks behind and your little heart had stopped beating. Mommy and daddy were devastated. Our small amount of time that you spent with us was so precious to us. You will be forever missed and forever in our hearts.
We love you!
Mommy and Daddy
We assume the really serious changes in our lives
Happen slowly, over time
But it’s not true
The big stuff happens in an instant
Just like you
You were here for four short weeks
Just 1mm long when you made yourself known
But in an instant I felt more love for you
Than I ever thought possible
For just a few weeks I had you to myself
I came to know you and to love you
You trusted me with your life
And oh what a life it could have been
In those few weeks I felt your spirit linked to mine
I imagined your ocean eyes –
one day brilliant blue, the next dreamy green
I felt your heart, which would soon beat,
a heart courageous, sensitive and strong
I felt your softness, your warmth and your laughter
Those few weeks weren’t enough for others to understand
How special and important you were
How odd it is, a beautiful, truly, unique person has died
And no-one will gather to mourn the passing
You were just those few weeks my little one
You darted in and out of life too quickly
But it seems that’s all the time you needed
To link your soul to mine
One day we might find each other again my darling
And I’ll hold you in my arms and love you
For those few weeks.
Two tiny miscarriages within such a short period of time ~
My July 2010 Angel – we thought everything was going well and the morning sickness confirmed I was well and truely preganant. We were so excited to go for our 12 week scan, parents had already been told a few weeks earlier and everyone was looking forward to seeing your photo. Only that didn’t happen, you had died several weeks before and we never knew. I’m sorry my body failed you.
My November 2010 Angel – I was suprised I got pregnant so quickly and we were so cautious with your pregnancy, we told no one and hoped we would be able to give people the good news after a scan. We ended up having 2 scans, the first at 7 weeks due to some spotting where we were told it was too early to tell what was going on and to come back in 10 days. I think I knew at that point we wouldn’t be bringing you home and this was confirmed at the second scan.
Our hopes, dreams and plans for having a baby in 2010, an addition to the family, have been crushed. We miss you both and wish more than anything you could have stayed with us.
To my precious baby girl,
Thank you for letting me find out what unconditional love is…you will always be the love of our life. We wanted to meet you so badly, although I feel like I knew you so well sometimes. I will honor you and love you until I take my last breath.
Love Daddy Ari and Mommy Debra
I can’t believe that you are no longer here! Mommy and Daddy were so excited when we learned that you were coming. When we went to the doctor and realized you didn’t have a heartbeat we were devestated. We love you sweet angel and we know that you are resting in the arms of Jesus. Even though we never got to see your face or hold you in our arms, you will always be our baby. We love you so much,
We never got to hold you or to even hear your heartbeat, you left us before we were able to do that. After your daddy and I got over the shock of being pregnant so soon after your sister, we were ready for you to come into the world and make your self known. I was ready to be pregnant again. You would have been a Thanksgiving baby and we would have been grounded for the holidays. But I kinda knew from the beginning you were different from your sister but I didn’t know something was wrong. You left us around six weeks but one day I will get to meet you in person not just in feeling, that is the only thing that makes this a little bearable. Until then, I love you – I love you so much my little man.
We were so overjoyed to know of your life. You were to be a loving addition to our family. I instantly felt a connection with you no one could break. When I was told you were gone I knew a piece of myself was gone also. When we lost you your daddy cried only the second time since ive known him. We were only able to experiance the joy you brought for a short week but your memory and our love will be forever. We love you and miss you our little tad.
baby dunnet (caithness) 20/05/2010.
my poor wee baby,
you were to make our family complete,
we wanted you so badly,
we were so happy to hear you were on your way.
your brother andrew (3) and sister jasmine (1)
were so excited about you coming to join our family.
daddy was already picking your name!
when we went to our first scan at 12 weeks to see you for the first time,
we were so excited to meet you.
little did we know that your tiny heart had stopped beating just two weeks before.
you were just too precious for this world.
our hearts broke that day too,
i miss you so much baby.
i miss that we’ll never meet,
i’ve never cried so many tears.
but somewhere i’m sure your ok,
and know you’ll never be forgotten,
and will always be loved.
till we meet again,
On February 25th, we saw you, then you were gone. Thank you for teaching us patience, acceptance, and love during those 9 weeks. I have learned so much from losing you and I know you are okay now… But it’s still hard. You will never be forgotten.
i didnt know i was expecting you till now when a physic keeps telling your brothers annd sister ther is another family member it makes sense to me i miss you so much and love you you want your name your name is alan kisses and hugs mam god bless
I HAVE TO SAY GOODBYE BEFORE I SAY HELLO….YOU WERE WITH ME A SHORT WHILE BUT THE LOVE WILL ALWAYS GROW.I DIDNT GET TO FEEL YOU KICK OR KNOW ALL THE JOYS OF 9 MONTHS OF PREGNANCY BUT THE 2 MONTHS BROUGHT ME AS MUCH JOY AS 9. YOU NEED TO KNOW YOU WERE LOVED BY YOUR DAD AND 3 BROTHERS THE SECOND I UTTERD THE WORDS IM PREGNANT.YOU WERE A PART OF THE FAMILY AN EVERYONE STARTED MAKING PLANS ON A NAME WERE U WOULD SLEEP AN WHO WOULD MAKE A BOTTLE.. LOL IT WAS HEARTWARMING TO SEE EVEYONE GETTING ALONG AN PLANNIN ON U COMING HOME. YOUR LIFE WAS CUT SHORT THO I FEEL SAD BUT I KNOW U ARE HOME… UP IN HEAVEN A LIL TINY ANGEL XOXO MOMMY DADDY AND 3BIG BROTHERS.
I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you and keep you safe. I’m sorry i failed you. You will live forever in the hearts of your mommy daddy brothers and sister. The first thing I’m going to do when I get to heaven is hold you! Lost at 17 weeks
Our sweet, little suprise – I am so sorry that we never got to hold you. My heart aches for you and what you could have become. Your daddy and I will always hold you close to our hearts. We will see you again someday…..June 3, 2010 – 10 weeks.
My little baby U number 2, baby sister or brother to big sister KJ, we love you! I miss you so deeply and have cried a river for you my baby. You were to share a due date with your sister- oh how surprised we were to learn you shared the same due date. You were to be playmates and best friends. We are so sad that we did not get to see you or meet you or hear your little heart beating. But I trust in God and know you will be waiting for us in heaven. I am so blessed that God had me carry you for the past 6 weeks, such a wonderful time in my life. I love you little baby and will miss you all of my days. Grow big and strong in heaven little one, we will see you one day soon. Your forever mommy and family. Oh how I ache for you.
Though there are no tests to prove it, but I know you are a girl. You were here, in my womb for 12 weeks. You were created from love. You had a heart beat, arms, legs and you have a soul. You are loved from Earth. We will never hold you, look into your eyes, count your fingers and toes, smell your sweet baby scent. You are missed by Daddy, big brother and sister and probably most dearly by Mommy. Thank you for showing me how precious and delicate life is. Thank you for making me rethink the important things in life and to appreciate what we have. I know you are looking down on us and watching us, loving us. You were here for a short time, but you are loved forever.
Today is father’s day, it is so bitter sweet today. I didn’t know how to sign your daddy’s card so I just signed it” we love you”. Big sister, mommy and daddy miss you very much. I am still searching for purpose, I know God will help me through this storm. Baby I miss you, I think some days it gets harder rather than easier. I imagine heaven must be amazing, I am so glad you are home with Jesus. We have learned so much from you, thank you for all the love and learning you are giving us as a family, we grow stronger each day because of you my little peanut! I will wait to see you in heaven and love you all the days of my life. I love you sweet baby and I miss you beyond what I could have ever imagined. We celebrate you this father’s day! Love you- your mommy.
You were in our lives for such a brief time, but I want you to know that we love you very much. I never knew what it was like to be a mommy until that day that I found out that you were inside of me and my whole life changed. I will always wonder about you and can’t wait to see you in heaven someday!
Always remember our song!
“For if I ever saw you
I didn’t catch your name
But it never really mattered
I will always feel the same.
Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart
Love you whenever we’re together
Love you when we’re apart.”
To my little angels, Chloe and Chase, I love you so much and I miss u so much. Although you were with us for 19 weeks, you brought an entire family back together, the work of true angels! I will always think about you. Please continue to watch over me and daddy as you are our guardian angels.
Love, mommy and daddy
To my little Kaycee,
As your due date gets closer I think about you even more. I miss you and wish you were still with me. I can’t wait until the day I get to meet you in Heaven. I love you my little angel.
my sweet baby I loved you the day I found out you were growing inside me. I prayed the doctors made a mistake when they said you were gone. It hurts that I could never hold you and see your beautiful face. I will miss and love you forever my precious angel.
My sweet baby boy mommy loves you so much it hurts so much to know ill never hold you in my arms. I can’t describe the pain I’m in knowing I lost you. I know your in a better place now tho where gpa Roy and gma Sharon can love you and hold you til mommy & daddy get there. Ill think of you every day until then my sweet baby I love you and miss you already! R.I.p. 7-10-10
Baby, I think about you everyday. I miss you so much. I am sorry that I could not see your beautiful face. My family and I had such big plans for you, we already thought about the nursery…gamma bought the bassinet which her boyfriend was going to restore for you. The day I found out I lost you, daddy and I bought your stroller and play yard. We planned for vó and vô to come to the U.S. and take care of you for a couple months. The whole family is devastated. I told your great grandparents and they were so excited. Amma continues to knit the blanket she started for you. My heart aches for you. I love you so much. It hurts each time someone asks about you, I still can’t believe you are gone. You will always be in our hearts and I will never forget you. Love you always
June 25th-13 weeks
Its been a week since we lost you,we were only 10 weeks pregnant it was the worst feeling in the world. Your daddy and I were so happy when we found out we were pregnant. Losing you hurt us in a way I never want to feel again. We both cried and felt things we had never felt before. I blamed myself thinking there must have been something I could have done differently. Daddy felt his own guilt too but we both knew in our hearts we did everything we could to keep you safe. My angel I miss you already I am so sorry we never got the chance to meet. My heart aches for you. To not have been able to hold you or see your precious face your tiny feet and hear you cry hurts so bad. My Angel I don’t know why I was given such a precious gift as you and then u taken from us but baby know that you are loved so very loved and missed so much. I still don’t want to believe your gone. I miss you baby and hope you know that we will never forget you and you will be in our hearts and minds always. I love you my Angel. <3 IAG <3
Adriel my love,
Its been 2weeks since we couldn’t hear your heartbeat. I still find it hard to believe that you are gone but my body is tells another story. God gave you to me and He knows why you are gone. Know that I love you more than I can describe and in my heart you will continue to live. What wouldn’t I do to still have you with me.
I miss you every day. Please watch over mummy, my lil’ angel. Sleep tight and rest in the bosom of the Lord from whom you came.
My love, mummy and daddy love you and will never forget you.
My sweet baby girl how I miss you so much! You were a tiny 1lb 2oz and 11 1/2 inches long but you made a HUGE impact in my life and others. Mommy, Daddy, Aly and Jack miss you everyday. I held you for a little while in my womb and in my arms for an even shorter time but I will always hold you in my heart until it stops beating and I am holding you in my arms again.
Tiny Angels rest your wings
sit with me for awhile.
How I long to hold your hand,
And see your tender smile.
Tiny Angel, look at me,
I want this image clear….
That I will forget your precious face
Is my biggest fear.
Tiny Angel can you tell me,
Why you have gone away?
You weren’t here for very long….
Why is it, you couldn’t stay?
Tiny Angel shook his head,
“These things I do not know….
But I do know that you love me,
And that I love you so.”
“Some people dream of angels…..we held one in our arms.”
I love you baby girl!
Sarah Ruthann Jackson
May 29, 2010
10:10am 1lb 2oz 11 1/2 in long
Born an angel
Oh my angel baby, you came into our life a surprise and you left the same way. It hurts so much to be separated from you. I know you are free from pain and hurt and the weight of the world but how we long to have held you, to see your smile, to watch you grow and be loved on by your brothers. Mommy’s heart is broken and it will never be the same again. Even though I did not expect you I want you to know I love you with all of my heart and I carry you with me every second of every minute.
Jonathan Gabriel Day
May 20, 2010
6:45 pm, 1 pound, 8 ounces and 5 inches long
My sweet Caylee Joy, its been awhile. I miss you my sweet baby girl. Ashley had her baby today. She named him Logan. You two would have grown up together. I look at Logan’s pictures and wish I had some of you. Of your little fingers and toes, face and nose – all those things I never got to see. I miss you my baby girl, I miss you so much. I love you, my joy and sunshine, my little angel.
I wish you were here, so I could say how much I love you to you, so I could hold you and cuddle you and never let you go.
When I found out I was pregnant with you I was shocked. I’ve become much stronger emotionally since you arrived. You were my baby and I would never let a hurtful hand touch you. You would be three months old right now and I miss you today just as much as I missed you the day you left. Six weeks wasn’t nearly long enough. I love and miss you so much!
I think about you each and every day of my life. I do not have anything to physically remember you…but you are and will always be in my heart. I never got to see you, I never got to feel you kick…but the vision of the smile that was on our faces each time that pregnancy test read positive….is all we needed to make it feel real. I write about you in my journal and talk about you all of the time. One day we will all meet in heaven.You are forever in our hearts….
Lost you before I found you
Gone before you came
But I love you just the same
Missed you before I met you
On earth we never can
But in heaven we’ll meet again
Mommy and daddy miss you so very much. We can’t wait to meet you on the otherside. But untill then watch over big sister and brother. You can’t imagine how much we love and miss you.
Love, your mommy, daddy, sister, and brother
From the moment I saw “pregnant” flash across the test I felt a love like never before. So, quickly you have gone before I had a name. I am sorry that I did not keep you safe inside my womb. Please know that Daddy and I will always love you and hold a very special place in hearts for you our first child. I love you more than words may express.
To our baby angel,
We were so excited when we found out you were in your way to meet us. We told Caroline she was going to be a big sister, and we were so happy, we even told family and friends. We saw your heart beat at 6 weeks and felt strongly that you would be fine. Then at our 10 week appointment, you were gone. You little heart had no beats left. You died at 8 weeks and 5 days. You will always be a part of our family and a piece of daddy and I’s hearts will be with you. We love you so much now and forever.
Love, Mom, Dad and Caroline
It was one year ago today that I saw your little heart beating, your little arms and legs waving. I did not know the next time I saw you that you would no longer be you. Your image is printed only in my heart and mind. I miss you every day. I see you in every baby. I have decided to change your middle name to Grace. Sophia Grace sounds fitting for a angel.
Hello little something.
Only I saw you, but I know lots of people have thought of you. Maybe your heart only beated just slightly before you left; but lots of love continues to go to it. Your dad wants to name you after the sky, and I thought of light. My mind knows you as my something. Little child in the in between, you are not nothing.
Thinking of you,
my dearest Gabriel 17/12/09 12 wks i am so sorry you did not get your cuddle and kisses from me and daddy i send you a million everyday my sweethearti hope you know how much we all love you forever and eternity a true piece of me is forever gone xxxxxx
my baby twins Charlie & louie 21/07/10 16 wks holding you in our arms will never be forgotten me and daddy where so happy to have and hold you both so close even if it was not for long , i felt you go and leave me and i will forever love snd miss you both my beauitful babies xxxxxx
forever heartbroken mama dada and big sister Millie
I already bought you some cute onesies……saw your little heart flickering…..and before we could announce the news to the world….you were gone…but thank you for stopping by. I wanted you so bad…..I hope we meet again.
My little angle
Day before yesterday, I held you, baby, in my hands, as you passed through my vagina at 16 weeks. I am sorry that I could not bring you alive into this world. I cannot forget that picture. You were so perfect with eyes, mouth, hands, legs and even finger nails.
Your elder sister Zinnia, dad and me, we will all miss not having you with us.
Nearly a year back, we had lost you on May 26th, 2009 as well, after having you with us for exactly 16 weeks. It was wonderful having you with us, for the time you chose to be with us.
We all pray that you will come back to us again and stay as long as we are around and more.
Our Angel, July 15, 2010 at 9 weeks and 3 days, Even though the world doesn’t look at you as my child, you will always have a huge place in heart and Mommy and Daddy and your big brother miss you! I can’t wait to hold you in heaven! My heart is breaking for you!
I was so shocked and surprised when I realized you were growing in me. My doctor had told me and your daddy we would have to take fertility drugs to have a baby. But you were our little miracle baby. We talked about you all the time, talked to you, tried to picture your perfectness. When daddy and I went to your 11 week checkup and found out you had stopped growing at 8 weeks we were heartbroken and devastated. We had to have a D&C July 2nd, and I feel like a piece of me died that day. My angel, my heart aches for you every day. I wish you were still here in my womb getting bigger every day. Some days its hard for me to even get out of bed, I feel so empty without you. I hope the angels snuggle with you in heaven like we would have and tell you how much we love you. I hope you know I would do anything if I could just have you back. We love you and will never forget you Lil Bean.
Mommy and Daddy
I named you today.
My ember, my light that flickered for only an instant, it seems. My joy and fear and guilt, a flame that will never burn out in my heart.
Too young, they said, to have a baby. And it is my greatest fear that it is because of this I couldn’t carry you to term.
But lots of 17 year olds get knocked up, don’t they? Hundreds, if not thousands of unwanted and abandoned babies in this country alone.
But you, Ember.
I wanted you like I’ve never wanted anything in my life.
And quite literally, you slipped through my fingers.
I’m so sorry, my love.
You will always be my first baby.
My Ember Louise.
I will love you for the rest of my life.
I am so sorry I couldn’t protect you! You were the only thing left to make daddy and my life complete ! You were a blessing , I miss you everyday. Your all I think about , last night was a rougher night than most. I don’t know why you are gone but Jesus needed another angel . Mommy and Daddy love you so much Aiden
Hello my sweet baby,
I miss you soo much! I cry all the time. I think of you all the time. It’s hard because I so badly wanted to see you and your big sister Janessa together. I wanted to see if you look like her, or more like Daddy, or more like me. I feel so sad that I only got to have you for 2 weeks. I didn’t even get to see you. I know you are taken care of in Heaven. Jesus is there and so are your Great Grandmas! Give them big hugs for Mommy okay? I love you sweet pea, my precious Casey!
You are so loved and will be loved forever and ever!
Love forever, Mommy
No farewell words were spoken. no time to say goodbye. You were gone before we knew it. And only God knows why.
We lost you on 7-9-10. We miss you more than you will ever know. We were so happy the 13 weeks you were here. Your big brother decided to give you the name John Dear, though we are not sure if you were a boy or a girl. He still asks about you all the time. He misses you even though he never met you. We loved you from the moment of conception and will continue to love and think about you every day of our lives. You were a miracle to us and brought us such joy. Until we meet again in heaven, always know that Mommy and Daddy love you very much! Please watch over your big brother!
Hi my bacha,muma & Papa misses u alot. We will never forget the day we lost u,its 30.06.10. We loved u from the moment of conception and will continue love & think abt u evryday of our lives. Joshu gran maa & mike maama also remembers u & miss u alot. Papa misses u alot my baby,he always cry for u,and always tells me how much he loved u & how important u were for us. You were a miracle for us,& brought lots of happiness & joys in our lives. I love u my little angel. As u know i had already decided your name but did’nt knew u were baby Girl Or Baby boy but had decided to keep your name Joshua as your Papa’s name is Joel.When u were with me things were beautiful & was very happy to have u, But now every night i miss u alot and cry for u. I know u r safe & happy with the lord in the heaven who is the father & mother for all,I know he will take care of u & will always be there for u. From the day u left me from that day,my only prayers to the lord is to get u back into our lives. I always pray to him to send u back my joshua.
U made our lives complete. I am sorry i coul’nt sve u. U brought your Muma & papa close to u & left us alone. u were only one thing to make Papa & my life complete. u were the blessing . why did u go my sweetheart.I want u as i dont want anything in my life. I can not tell u how were those days in the hospital from the time i came to know u were going far from me…those three days were so tough and went so soon that was just waiitng that the doctor would say sumthing positive & god would do a miracle.
I never really knew you, never saw your face, but I love you regardless. I loved you as soon as the test said you were there. I loved you as a spot on the sonogram, and loved hearing your little heart fluttering. I don’t know if you are a boy or a girl, but want you to know that your big sister Olivia Marie will take care of you. She joined the angels on 1/22/10 at 35 weeks, and can help show you the ropes. Your dad and I will miss you, and love you until we get to hold you one day in Heaven.
I find it werid tryin to get over you….
not many people understand what i feel… i should be over you moving on with my life…it’s so hard
Miss you so much i was so excited about meeting you but now i will have to wait until god takes me in his arms and brings me to you…
god bless my angel xxxxxx
My baby. I have missed you so much and continue to weep for you. I think about you everyday and what I would have been feeling at this time in my pregnancy if you were still inside of me. We have four more months until we reach the day the doctor estimated you would be born. I wish I could feel your kicks or hear your heart beat. I hope you are in heaven and looking down upon us with angel wings. My heartaches for you my precious baby. My heart is no longer whole, you claimed a piece of it. I love you so much my sweet baby.
love you always
June 25th 13 weeks
To My Girls,
Sophie, my little angel sweetheart, I had you for eleven weeks, and I love you so much. Your daddy and I talk of you often, and I know you’re looking out for your little brother. He would have loved you so much.
My Ari, I’m so sorry. I thought for sure I’d get to meet you, to hold you. I dreamed about snuggling your soft cheeks and cuddling you close. Jakob says “Buh-bye Ari, I love you little sister”. He kissed my belly this morning, and this afternoon you’re an angel. We will think of you daily.
I miss you both so much, it’s unimagineable. I long for the day I see you both again in Heaven.
Your Daddy and I love you both so incredibly much. SO much.
Many years ago , I lost first you two , you didn’t have names then but I allways think of you as Molly and Sam , Jan 18 never passes with out me thinking of you , you would be 15 1/2 now , Daddy and I were very Happy to have a sister who is 14 , and 12 , and a brother who is 10 for you , we are very blessed , we also think of our baby Lilly/Freddie, who whould be 13 , we are very greatful for the healthy babies we have but will never forget the ones who we never got to meet.Daddy and I Love you All.
Oct.17 2007 my heart broke in half ANGEL and ABIGAIL were born still they dint open there eyes here but they open them in heaven .I thank god for being there when i needed him for litsening to me.Iwill never forget you my little babies,one day Iwill see you again and together we will walk in the garden of heaven…..I LOVE YOU MY ANGELS
Hi my baby boy. I still miss u so much I don’t think it’ll ever go away. I decided to name you Britt Michael. After your amazing uncle’s. I got a tattoo for you today, a little angel sitting on my shoulder. I love you so much I can’t wait till the day I can see you in heaven. I love you. ~mommy
Our precious little baby, we loved and wanted you long before we knew you existed. You are our second child and have a beautiful big sister. We were so excited to become a family of four. I carried you in my tummy for 20 weeks, but you stopped growing at 16. The day we lost you is by far the most painful day I have ever lived through. You will never be forgotten, we will love, miss, and remember you forever.
Mommy and Daddy miss you so much! You will always be our first baby and the one we loved first. We think of you every day and will love and miss you forever. I wish so badly I could hold you in my arms, but I know Jesus will hold you until I get a chance.
Your Mommy and Daddy
Ladibug and Junebug
Mommy and Daddy, love you so much!! You will always be our little apple seed!! We promise to think of you everyday and always remember that you are a part of our family. You will always be our little angel! I wish that we were able to hold you in our arms and tell you just how much you mean to us. You will be missed!! I know you are in a beautiful place, being loved and held by amazing people. Until we meet, we love you now and always,
hi my baby i want you to know that i miss you everyday and still trying to figure out all the whys…even though i know they will never be answered. you have two big brother and many cousins who were so excited and could not wait to meet you many already saying if you were a boy or girl. there were also my patients who were so excited to hear about you and asked questions often. i did see your lil heart beat on two seperate occasions its just that 3rd. visit when you were 10wks that your heart beat was gone. it was the worst day of my life. i want you to know that i love you and you will always be remembered. i think of you daily.
mommy and daddy
im 18 years old and i found out yesterday that i lost my little girl. i just want her to know that shes always going to be my little girl and no one can ever change that. and that her daddy and i really do miss her very much….. her name is avery grace and she will be missed…. love u baby girl!!!!
Even though i lost you to a miscarriage I will always love you in my heat mind and soul you will always by my little baby . I miss you every day. I am sorry I never told your daddy about you or anyone .
I was scared not realizing I was losing you especially when I hid you from them . Please forgive me . I am going to get a remembrance thing for you and me and I will put memories in it even though you didn’t last long . You will always be my sweet little baby angels and always will be remembered .
Its only been 3 days since you left us you were only 15 weeks 3 days in my womb. You were predicted to be a boy and on Sept 27th 2010 the predictions were confirmed. You are now our lil angel in heaven and understand that god needed you in heaven. Always know that mommy and daddy will forever love you and remember you and take you in our hearts. Forgive us for not being able to hold you in our arms. But we will always remember that day when we saw you for the first and last time.
To my little Angel Joseph–
Words cannot explain how very much your Daddy and I love you and how much we miss you. We lost you so early, only 8 wks along inside of me, but each and every day was such a precious one, and I am ever so grateful to God for granting us even that precious time to have you with us on earth. While you were too early along to know for certain if you were a boy or a girl, I feel strongly inside that you were a little boy. Please know that you will forever be in our hearts. Even though we never got the chance to hold you in our arms, we know that you are with us still, watching over us in heaven. You will always be my first child, my precious angel, and I will never, ever, forget you.
This is the second time I have been on here. I miss you so much . I had a dream the other night I was holding the moat precious baby boy I have ever held in my whole life. It was an amazing feeling of calmness that came over me it felt so real like it was supposed to be . Aiden I know that it was you I was holding you I just know it was you Aiden Layne mommy and daddy love you and miss you so much xoxo
It’s hard to know what to say. I now have four little ones in heaven and three little ones here to hug. Galen, Aiden, Kelly, Micah. I miss you so much and wish you were here. If my precious ones here are cute, how adorable you guys must be! I am having a really hard time right now. It has been two weeks and two days since I realized Micah hadn’t made it. It was such a shock. I had heard her heartbeat. I was at the “magic” 13 week mark. I think that being on this site is bothering my husband. It makes him uncomfortable. He didn’t even want to name this one. But I just had to. I know I’ll come back and write something more personal. Right now I am dealing with a lot of denial, I think. I keep thinking that I am feeling a baby move.
I never got to find the person you would have become, I never got to meet you and hold you in my arms.
Please wait for me in Heaven baby, one day I will get to meet you.
Its very difficult to write this, after such a short time.
I love you with all my heart, you are forever missed
Yesterday I went to a memorial for babies who have died. I thought of you the entire time. I miss you so much and still think about how far along I would be in my pregnancy with you. I should be able to hear your heart beat, feel you kick and move, but I just feel a little hole inside of me. When they released the doves, a great amount of pain came through and I just cried and cried for you my sweet baby. I listened to the stories of mothers & fathers who got to meet their babies, some knew their babies favorite color even. I didn’t even get to name you, I just call you my baby. I hope you are free and happy like the butterfly that we released. It was beautiful watching it spread its wings and fly. My sweet baby I miss you and think of you often.
It was only a few days ago when i knew you had gone. I was only 7 weeks but ive been waiting for so long for you to happen i hope the angels will look after you and take care of you and love you as much as i do.Me and daddy love you and will miss you so much. I will light a candle tomorrow for you so you know im thinking of you. Me and daddy love you little bean and im sure we will see you in heaven
All our love little bean
from mommy and daddy xxxxxxxxxx
Nathan, I was only 23 1/2 weeks pregnant when you decided it was time for you to come into this world. The delivery was too much for you and you didn’t make it through it. Mommy held you for four hours after you were born and I will always remember your sweet face. You would have been almost fours old now. I love you and miss you very much. You will always be in my heart and I will see you again one of these days.
I just found out on the 11th that you had been gone for 4 weeks already. I love you with all of my heart. I was privileged in getting to go into labor for 7 hours and deliver you. You had 2 beautiful big blue eyes, 2 arms, 2 legs, 2 beautiful tiny hands and fingers the cutest belly and belly button. A tiny little smile on your face, that I would like to think is because you saw Jesus. It was so hard to bury you because I felt like I was leaving you alone and abandoning you. I never wanted to let you go. NEVER
Oh my Gawd! You have my heart. My heart was buried with you. And you will always be mine. All Mine. I wish to God I could go back and fix whatever it was that I did to cause this. Please forgive me.
Dear Sophia Grace,
I met an angel named Emma. She is truly an angel trapped here on Earth. She should have been in heaven with you but for a strange genetic mutation. I have to believe everything happens for a reason. Her angelic duty is to teach us just that lesson. She has helped me let you be… forever in my heart.
To my little sparrows–
Aloha Peace–Hello, goodbye, I love you, be at peace
Manasseh–God will cause me to forget
Carina Electra–dear little shining one
Matthew John–gift of God, God is gracious
Odelia Grace–Melody of grace
Today I named you my sparrows, because the loving Father notices when little sparrows fall.
Our family picture doesn’t look like the normal ones. On earth, it’s just your daddy and me. But in Heaven, my nine little darlings surround Jesus with such joy on their faces. Because of your short lives here, you have all of eternity to spend with Jesus!
And maybe someday soon, God will show us what to do so we can grow our babies to full term and know what it’s like to finally hold them.
All my love, and we’ll have all of eternity to be together!
To our little one,
We were so happy to be expecting. We looked forward to meeting you and watching you grow. Know that as long as we live, you are in our hearts. We know that you are looking down on us and watching over us. We love you very much and will see you one day in heaven.
To my beautiful child,
Last night Jesus took you home and held you in his arms and sang you to sleep because I couldn’t. He let you meet your 3 other siblings that are with him. Even though I never got to see you Jesus has given you wings. One day we will get to meet you. You will forever be in our hearts!!
Love you always and forever!
My sweet baby, I love you. I will always be your mommy. You are in Heaven with Jesus now, and you left us at 9 weeks, 3 days. Your heart was beating and you were fighting to stay with us to the very end. I wanted you here so badly. Maybe that is why you fought so hard. But I am glad that you are in a place where you are happy and with the rest of our family. I know I will see you again. I can’t wait to hold you and touch you and kiss you. I will always love you. I will always be your mommy, and Daddy will always be your daddy and you have a big sister who still loves you. Your face was so sweet, innocent and loving. I am so glad I got to see you and to even hold your tiny body after you left. I know I will never forget you. I love you, my sweet, loving, fighting little baby. Theodore James. Oct. 15, 2010
My dearest baby girl Makayla Ann, Ive been so very sad since you had to leave. I think about you all the time. I wish sometimes and can go to heaven with you so i can hold you, and love you just like i planned to do when you were born but i know i cant leave this world yet. I missed out on your life and im soo sorry you cant be here. I love you soo much. You’ll always be in my heart and i will miss you forever.
My little angel
Makayla Ann Servedio
October 28, 2010
to my little boy giovanni nicholas i love you and miss you i still think about that night that god took you to heaven and how you looked when i held you for the last time, i go to sleep and dream about you and how beautiful you are losing you on oct 21 2010 that was your grandpa’s birthday and that hurt him so bad but that will be a day that everyone will never forget till we meet again in heaven where i can hold you, you are now with your other two siblings that are there with god i love always baby boy see you when i get there
My dear loving child that never had a chance to make it to the world. i love and miss you so much. We as a family had a lot of love and laughs waiting for you. I know your in a better place now, and it’s hard to let you go because we wanted you so bad. Words can not explain how i feel right now. I feel like a piece of my soul is gone, but i know i have to be strong for your brother. you will ALWAYS be in my prayers…….
Although my first thought of you was fear that I wouldn’t be able to take care of you, I love you so much. I looked forward to the life the 2 of us would’ve had together and you have no idea how much I love you baby. (Jadea Brooke or Eli Lyric) I’m sorry that I’m not sure which one you are since I didn’t quite have time to learn that much about you.
I was already talking to you and sensing your presence. Although April 23, 2010 was many months ago, it is still fresh in my mind and heart. I will never forget the thrill I had with those first days of morning sickness, knowing that you were finally here after eight years of ttc.
Though God chose to call you home, you will always be my greatly loved angel. I wish I could have seen your sweet face and felt the clasp of your little fingers around mine.
Please know that I will keep you always in my heart and look forward to the day when we will be reunited.
God bless and keep you my baby.
Yours lovingly with all my heart,
My sweet little Bean,
How heartbreaking that instead of seeing a wiggly little peanut on the screen instead we saw a quiet little lump curled up in eternal slumber… Knowing three of my girlfriends are due right about your birthday is bittersweet now. i truely believe a strong spirit gets another chance at a stronger body…and so I welcome you back sweet one whenever you are ready.
Sweet little spirit, thank you for blessing us with your presence for just a short time. You were/are loved and will remain in our hearts until we can hold you in heaven.
We love you, our sweet, sweet baby,
Mommy loved you and never wanted to lose you. I wanted to hold you and watch you grow up. Daddy misses you too..even if truth be told he was always quite worried about what to do. Mommy got to hear the sound of your heart 5 short days before you died. For the first and only time…your picture sits on my Dresser you gave mommy a new reason to be and Daddy a reason to hold on. Now together we work to move on, not trying again right now we decided we would wait. 8 wks 5 days old…you should of been born June 3rd 2011, Mommy and Daddy found out they lost you on daddy’s 25th birthday Nov 21 2010. Mommy hopes to name a star after you one day, I told daddy that all the stars in the sky were all the babies that where lost before there time and the moon is the nightlight to keep them safe at night. I hope its bright enough for you my love.
You were wanted,loved and now missed so much. My heart aches from the unbearable asddness I feel. June 8th 2011 would of been the day we would of met for the first time. I would have held you so tight and kissed you so much my litttle darling. I will never,ever forget you and will come find you in heaven one day to give u all the kisses and cuddles I have saved up for you. Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Five months after I lost my precious baby Aingeal, I found out that I was once again pregnant. My midwives sent me to have an ultrasound at about 9 1/2 weeks to make sure all was fine and give me some peace of mind. On April 9th, 2010 I found out that I was pregnant with twins, but neither of them had a heartbeat. Once again my heart was broken, once again my dreams crashed and burned. I now have 3 angels in heaven, but I know that they are in a better place and that my life is better for having them in it even if for only a short time. I love you my sweet babies, and I hold each and every one of you in my heart forever…Jesus will hold you until I get there one day.
Love always and forever,
i was not quite sure of what to make of your surprise. although unexpected, i am confident i was up for the challenge. your father would have actually made an excellent teacher, one of the most brilliant men i have ever met.
i thought this was what i wanted, but your unexpected loss has made me take a deep look at what those things truly are.
may your light shine brightly in heaven forever and ever, amen
You left us to meet our heavenly father on November 6th and my world hasn’t been the same since you left. Your father and I miss you terribly and I feel so lonely with out you here with us. You have so many people praying for you right now and I know that you hear their prayers in heaven. Some day we will all be together again, a whole family. Until then you have many family members with you, including your grandmother which would have loved to see you on earth. Keep looking out for us, my precious angel.
Although I only carried you for 7 weeks you are forever in my heart and you will never be forgotten. I will love you til the day I die. I know you are in heaven with your other brothers/sisters and are being comforted in the arms of angels.
One day we can all be together as one family and I will finally get to wrap my arms around you all.
There are no words to describe how much we miss you but we know your now in a much happier and safer place; in the arms of God. You will always be our precious angel and that Daddy and me loves you very much.
Until we see each other again our precious one,
Mummy and Daddy xxx
Goodbye my Angels, I wish so much I knew why you couldn’t stay with me. We love you so much. One day we will meet and all my questions will be answered until then you will stay in my heart and you being there will help me heal. I will never know in this lifetime who you might have become but I know that I will never be a Mom. Thank you for letting me imagine who you might have grown up to be.
Rest In Peace
You were only with me for a very short time. After 6 weeks you decided not to stay. Your DNA may not have been right for this world. I don’t know. I hope you are in peace.
To my second baby:
Your mommy is now 8 weeks along, the same age you were when you sacrificed yourself for mommy and daddy’s foolish decision. You wanted to be here but I was cruel and took away that chance. Your younger sister is with mommy and daddy today because of your sacrifice. Now, another sibling will be hopefully joining us in July. I am so sorry. I believe you have forgiven me but I will always have grief in my heart.
To my first baby;
I believe you were a boy. I had a gut feeling, and the night after you were brought into this world, only to return to heaven, I had a dream about a little boy. It was you. I always wanted my first baby to be a boy, so I could have a little girl next and he’d watch over his little sister:) But now you’ll just watch over your siblings from a place that no one can take from you.
I miss you so much. Since I’m only 17, I was scared that being a mom at 18 was going to ruin my life. When you came out, I would have done anything for you to be alive. Your heart was meant to be elsewhere, and I hope that you can watch over your dad and I, as we struggle through getting over you being gone. If we make it, it’ll be by your grace. I’ve never missed anyone like this.
God knows your dad misses you more than anything as well. He saw your little legs, eyes, and arms when you came out. I couldn’t look. But I love you, and he loves you. He never looked forward to something so much.Your buried right next to your great grandma, who would have loved you more than anything. You’re in a little Winnie the Pooh box..if I ever get pregnant again, the theme for my nursery is going to be Winnie the Pooh. In remembrance of you.
Today was going to be my first doctors appointment, so I could see you, and hear your beautiful heartbeat. Instead, I’m going to the doctors tomorrow for a Emergency Room follow up. I’m going in by myself, because I want you to be the only other soul there with me, besides the doctor.
Watch over your dad and I baby. I love you and miss you. And I feel so empty without you. I hope you’ve made some friends up in the big old sky, in the never ending place of heaven. I always look up there and think about you. Can’t wait to meet you someday, I hope your waiting there for me<3.
Now I'm going to go to college for something in the medical field, and with babies, so I can help other women if their time ever comes.
I miss you so much, and I hope your doing okay.
Love you Angel Baby.
It has been over a year since we lost you and I think about you everyday. I wish I had spent more time nurturing you, singing to you, loving you during your short 4 1/2 months with us. I hope you are safe and warm looking over the beautiful fields and ocean. I will forever hold an emptiness in my heart for you. I hope you can forgive us for our decision. It may have been selfish but I wanted to protect you from suffering.
It has been over a year since we lost you and I think about you everyday. I wish I had spent more time nurturing you, singing to you, loving you during your short 4 1/2 months with us. I hope you are safe and warm looking over the beautiful fields and ocean. I will forever hold an emptiness in my heart for you. I hope you can forgive us for our decision. It may have been selfish but I wanted to protect you from suffering.
You were so dear to us from the very start. The moment we found out you had finally come we were more than delighted! I have to say it was the happiest day of my life..your teeny tiny self had shed such big light on my life!!
I am so proud I was able to be your momma! Though the time was short I am grateful for every moment we had together. Thank you for blessing us and being our little “weeb weebs”!
I love you sweet pea!
Always and Forever, Love
Mommy & Daddy, Rio and Yoshimi <3
We were so happy to find out about you little girl..my first girl having your brothers Gavin and Ryan…you left us after 17 weeks…it has been 3 weeks and I still cry over you..I wanted you so bad..I love you..mommy
My sweet baby girl! Oh how I miss you! I delivered you only a few days ago. 16 weeks of growing and you were already perfect. I held you all night, counting those tiny fingers and toes. Your brother misses you, and your daddy too! One day we will see you again princess. I love you.
What hurts the most my beautiful angels is that nobody else realises that while you were only in my belly a short while, you still meant the world to me and i will still remember you forever….. mummy wanted to give you the best life you could have ever have wished and hoped for but god took you in his hands and promised to look after you and i hope that you feel my love and see how regardless to how anybody else feels, i will never forget losing you and will carry you in my heart for the rest of my life. i have so many regrets now but now im thinking clearer i know yous are safe in heaven and i hope if and when i have your brothers and sisters there is a bit of you in them so mummy can have the happiness of your presence. words cant describe how much you mean to me but what i will say is that i love you millions and millions and i hope that your at peace playing together knowing your mummy will always love you. night angels. mummy loves you. sweet dreams xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My sweet babies. I am sorry that I never got to meet you. I hope you are both together in a special place. Yesterday I lost my second baby and felt numb. I found out there was no heartbeat on Monday and then yesterday they took you from me. I was going to tell my family this weekend and in 2 weeks we were going to tell my husbands family. My heart aches for you both. I am still in shock that this has happened a second time. I love you both so much and you will both always have a part of my heart. I hope you are happy and safe now.
When I lost you, I broke down. Nothing mattered anymore, if I never got to see my beautiful baby girl. Yes, girl, because in my heart, I knew. You were my little Belle, right from the start. You watched over me from where you are now, as I lost everything. But then you gave me the courage and support to build me back up, and I just know that one day we will meet again.
Until then, all my love.
I only knew about you for 12 days. That was long enough to fall completely in love with you. I would imagine your face, your hands.
I miss the way it felt to know you were inside me. I want you back, come back.<3
It's been 2 weeks and 5 days. I love you.
My dearest Malachi,
On Christmas this year you would have been 5months old according to the due date given. God gave me your name and allowed me to see pictures of you as you aged in my dreams. Your beautiful foot in utero, your sweet round head just like your older brother, but you had brown hair like your mother! A quick flash ahead of your handsome face as a grown man. I heard you call out”mama” and saw you reach for me. I woke with my arms extended reaching for you.
Perhaps that is because your love is attached to my love forever. That is a quote from your big brother Elias who would have been estatic to have a sibling around. You will remain in your Mommy, Daddy and brothers heart until the day we meet you in Heaven. We love you and your mommy misses you so much and will never forget the 8 weeks you held on trying to be with me physically.
I lost my first little bean at 7 weeks and now I lost another little bean at 5 weeks I have been crying for days and think of you both everyday I miss you so much. Me and daddy are so sad they have taken you both away I noticed I was bleeding on sat and I knew there was something wrong I was hoping you would stay with us forever but now the angels will look after you. Mommy and daddy miss you both so much we love you little bean see you in heaven xxxxxxxx
I lost my precious angel on 12th July 2010. At your 12 week scan mommy and daddy discovered that you had Trisomy 18 symdrome. The doctors told us that you would not be with us for long, and would not live an easy life for the time you would be with us. Mommy and daddy had the hardest decision to make, and was the most heart wrenching and difficult time of our lives, but we knew we had to let you go, but know that you will be with your Grandad Nash, and lots of your beloved family, who will be looking after you in the sky! Mommy and daddy miss you every single day. Miss you so so much, and if there was anything i could wish for it would be to have met you. Love you forever and will meet you one day I know, and will tell you all about your family, your 2 beautiful sisters and brother. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My precious Angel, I lost you at 9 weeks of pregnancy (December 9, 2010). Daddy, baby brother Cristian and I were looking forward to your arrival, which never came. We loved you from the moment you were conceived and you will be loved for the rest of our lives. Although the Lord has called you and we know you are now an Angel, in our memories you will become a treasure. Because you are so closed to God, we ask you to always watch over your Big Brother as he will always know there is an Angel above him. Love you & Miss you my sweet little Angel.
Why? Why did you leave us? I will never forget the sweet sound of your heart beat at 7 weeks. I was overjoyed that this time seemed to be different. I was thinking positive and week by week, I thought you were growing. I was so looking forward to next Christmas when you would be here with us. Now, every Christmas will be a reminder of the second baby I have lost. I am shattered. We love you and created you without any help. It seemed so right that you were conceived naturally without fertility drugs or any intervention. I feel like such a failure. The one thing I want in life is to be a mother and I can’t even succeed at something that so many other women take for granted. So many babies are born in this world to deadbeat mothers and fathers. Where is the fairness?
I think you were a boy. We will never know but that is what I believe. I prayed for you everyday. I’m not even religious but I prayed every single day for you to be healthy and that I would carry you to term. Why am I being punished? What did I do to deserve this? I have 2 holes in my heart now. Holes that will never go away. I hope you are with our first baby we lost. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of both of you, miss you, and want you back. This time we shared was much longer than the first time. It was incredible. I miss feeling you inside of me. What could I have done differently to help you keep growing? What did I do wrong? All of these unanswered questions. All of the hopes & dreams that everyone had. So many people pulling for you to be strong. Our families were looking so forward to meeting you. We all love you and will never forget you.
Slipped Away by Avril Lavigne. Modified slightly by Billie-Ann Garry.
I miss you
Miss you so bad
I won’t forget you
Oh it’s so sad.
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly.
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won’t be the same
I didn’t get the chance to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could feel you again
I know that I can’t
I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won’t be the same
That dream is gone. Will there be another?
I knew it was too good to be true.
I keep asking why?
And I can’t take it
It wasn’t fake
It happened, you passed by
Now you’re gone
Somewhere I can’t bring you back
Now you’re gone
Somewhere you’re not coming back
My sweet Presley,
Mommy and Daddy miss you so much. Even though we only knew you for 7 weeks and 5 days it was the most incredible days of my life. You are with Jesus now and forever safe. We will meet u again someday! I miss you so much. I felt like I already knew you! Love Mommy and Daddy!!
I have never stopped thinking about you since you were taken away from us in June this year at just 9 weeks. They were the happiest nine weeks ever and we were so looking forward to meeting you in what would have been just two weeks time.
I will always love you and will never forget my first baby.
My little Angel i am so sad i never got to hold you in my arms you were our first baby to come into our world and we loved you from the second u were made, you left us at 8.5weeks. I have so much love for you and will forever, i will share the memory of you with the little miracles that we hope will come along, every sunset, every star, every sparkle i see i will think of you….goodbye and bless your tiny soul.
I love you my “angle babies” as your big sister Eden calls you! I dream of what you must be like and how you must be enjoying the glory of the Lord! Elijah, Elisha, Jordan, and Eliakim not a day goes by that I do not think of you! In your honor I will spend the rest of my life speaking out for your generation and declaring justice for the un-born, for the glory of God of course! Love Mommy!
We had been anxiously waiting to find out if you were a boy or a girl just 2 short weeks when we lost you. After you were gone we wanted to honor your short but beautiful life by giving you a special and fitting name. Ahaziah Rofi. (Gold holds, God has healed.) I love you so much sweetheart. My heart breaks that we never got the chance to show how much you meant to us. I pray that God is holding you and that you know how much we love you and always will hold a place in our hearts for you.
To my sweet Isabella Grace,
It’s been a year and half since you left us, and your first birthday past November 29th. I think of you everyday. I know you are with Jesus and your sister Christina and all of our relatives that have gone on, but my heart still years to be with you. This Christmas was very hard. Putting up the Christmas tree and placing your brother’s baby ornaments on it and not having one for you; I’m going to get one for you and your sister too. Still trying to have another baby, but am scared of how I will handle that. Am wondering if I can have any more babies. I love you and miss you so much and can’t wait to see you someday!
Gracelyn and Michael, you have my heart.
The moment I found out that you were growing inside of me, I felt nothing but happiness. I was so relieved with every passing day and hoping everything would be just fine. I am still searching for the reason this happened to us, to our family. My world is falling apart thinking you dont have your mother with you. I love you always and forever, never will I stop.
Butterfly, although it’s been 8 years I still think about you and miss you. Daddy & I were very young but from the moment we knew you were growing inside of me we loved you! Til the moment we meet again!
Oriel, I named you this because although I suffered the loss of Butterfly, your loss was much more tragic for us. Oriel mean “Angel of Destiny” Oriel, you were a surprise to Daddy & I but we were very excited. Your sister would’ve been very excited as well, although I didn’t tell her about you but when she gets older I will talk to her about both you and Butterfly.
Butterfly & Oriel, even tho I couldn’t see your eyes, touch your skin, see who you resembled… you are my babies! I love you both very much. A mother’s love is unconditional!
At times I wonder why? But I am sure our Creator needed a few more Angels in heaven! Not sure how to move on, no one really understands how I feel. Yes Thank God I am physically OK but how does one cope the loss of their babies?
My precious baby girl Ava, I wanted you so badly and I’ll never forget you. Almost 2 months have passed and still it feels like only yesterday. I’ll love you forever and i’ll always carry you in my heart.
With all my love
To my precious little one, I didn’t know you were there and now you’re gone. It makes me so sad. You are my little angel among the stars. I will never forget you, you have a special place in my heart. I look for you in the sky, I know you’re looking down on us and it makes me smile. All my love forever Mummy xxxxxx
To my baby Angel Gonzalez-Wyatt 1/7/2011. No matter what you will always be mommy and daddy’s perfect angel. I loved every minute I got to spend with you though you were with me for four months, you changed my life forever.
My dear Evie Jane 13/12/2010. Mummy will love you always and forever. Gone but not forgotton. Theres not a day goes by that i don’t think about you and just wish i was able to hold you in my arms just once.
My Precious Little Angel,
You were to be the fouth addition to our loving family. We were all looking foward to meet you, huge you and kiss you. But God needed an angel of 10 wks. on November 2010. Mommy was not able to give you all her love on Earth but will come to find her missing piece in haven one day.
I will love you forever my little Joy!
to my boy giovanni it has been four months since i lost you today would have been my baby shower i am still so heart broken but i know you are in a better place now i love you so much my angel till i see you in heaven mommy daddy and your big sister loves you
When they told me there were two of you i was so happy, but then your hearts stopped beating before i got a chance to meet or hold you. I think about you every day and wish things could have been different, i love you my poppets mummy and daddy are heartbroken forever
I new that something was wrong when the ultra sound said that you were only 5 weeks and 6 days and I knew that you should have been at least 8 weeks when I went to the hospital. I fear that that fall I had taken a couple weeks prior is what caused your demise even though they kept telling me that it couldn’t have….that night was the 1st time I had cramps….and the praying and worrying began. I am so worried about your daddy. This is tearing him up just as it is me….and your big sisters. You were going to be and will be our last. We were so surprised when we found out that you were coming because we didn’t think that we were ever going to have another…we even picked out your name (Katlynn Raeann or Jaden Carson-Ray)…but since your gone before we could find out which one you would be Tabitha & Samantha chose George since I used to call them and Selena George when they were little (just as a silly joke)…but daddy suggested to changing the “e” to “ia” so Georgia it is. It’s been so tough not having him around during this time but daddy has to make money on the road. I just wish that I could hug him or have his arms wrapped around me during this time. My sweet little Georgia, you were so loved by me, daddy, Tabitha, Samantha, and Selena.
After the shock of finding out about our miracle pregnancy at the age of 43, a week later, after just 5 weeks of pregnancy!! God choose to take you yesterday from us, the reason why we will never know.
Mummy & Daddy are very sad right now,
I know you are up in the sky, as a BRIGHT NEW TINY TWINKLING STAR……….
We will have quiet moments, looking up to the stars & we will be close to you in our hearts!!
You will never be forgotten,
Always in our hearts,
Mummy & Daddy.
Although you left us in October 2010, we have only just named you. We are desperately looking for ways to hold you up and say “Look! She was real! She did exist! She IS a part of our family!”
You were the one I saw… and that moment was awful. My heart sank, my stomach lurched. Part of me died with you.
Every moment that I am without you I feel like I am betraying you. I feel like I’m letting you down. If I smile I feel guilty! I shouldn’t be smiling, I shouldn’t be okay. I should be hurting, grieving. And believe me, I am. But the human heart can only ache for so long before it needs a rest or it will literally split in two.
I am so glad to have this memorial site, somewhere I can go to feel close to you. It would probably sound strange to most people because it’s an online ‘world’, how can it be personal? But it is. I feel you here, almost like you’re fluttering your angel wings against my cheeks and whispering in my ear.
You have two angel siblings, Lucas James and Chris Temple. Are they with you? I hope so. I don’t know how to post a memorial to them because they grew wings so long ago. Are you all playing together?
I’ve been working so hard to figure out this whole memorial thing – there’s going to be a garden and a memory box, among other things. The only problem is that I’ve been so busy concentrating on all this that I feel empty going to bed at night with nothing. Last night, not even the teddy bear I borrowed from Janaya helped… you’ve never felt so far away
Anyway, sweet angel, mummy must go. I have to get ready for the day ahead and it should be a busy one. I must attempt to put further work on my memories of you on hold until I’ve done some study… it’s never really on hold, though. My mind and my heart are always thinking of you.